I Dream to Sleep??

Cant get to sleep.... My mind is blank but somehow its running...... I dunno how to explain la....Its too complex....... I have to wake up early today though.... I have some plans of my own.... Macam mana ni nak bangun??????? heh .... Most people are up and getting ready for work or maybe already off to work.... Its the opposite for me... My morning is their afternoon, my nights is their mornings.....

Been having dreams in my sleeps and mostly its me going out wif some other guy.... There was not much guilt in those dreams in fact i was happy and smiley..... Gosh wat da heck is it trying to tell me??? Nahhhh....... Couldnt be...... Those guys may be the man of my dreams but in reality i am stuck wif one person......Duh...... dreams are nice..... It takes you away to a place where u long to be........ some place where u feel at peace with urself...... maybe i'll try to get some later..... maybe bore myself wif some senseless movie..... ANN IS PATHETIC.......

Maybe i have a stick and then lepakz......

Its all Good.

Wats Da point??

Nowasays i find it pointless to flare up, pointless to think so much, pointless to give well wishes, pointless to talk so much, find it pointless to do things for ppl.......

I'll be making some changes starting from tomoro........ Not gonna tell anyone bout it.... Just gonna do it by myself.....kherkherkher..... It feels so good to do wat I, Me wanna do...... Without having to listen to ppl saying this la that laaaa........ Gi mampos uh ngan korang.........kwerkzkwerkzkwerkz.........

Glad that i can laff at all this nonsensical things which u ppl throw at me....... Maybe im immune to it already...... Boring uh nak marah marah.... dah malas nak console console..... Kalau tak appreciate pun buat ape..... Buang air liur jer.....

BTW i went to the BAD BOYS 2 premiere screening powderful dar dey...... I guess that was the only best thing that happened.... Thanx for the tix elf,,,, appreciate it...... Klah i wanna KO already.... till then.....

Adiozzzzzzzzz

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Daze Maze...... BLANK???....CRAZY??

Been in a total state of blankness this past few days.... I could actually just stare at my pc or even sit in the middle of my bed and go blank....... Then suddenly i realise that i was doing nothing and snap out of it and do something that makes some sense.... I feel so empty...... I guess thats the reason i go blank at times.....

Nothing seems to bother me that much nowadays....... If elf dun look for me its fine..... I dun go all paranoid.... My mom nags at me.... Its fine....I just smile..... Am i going crazy or something??..... This is so not me.... Perhaps maybe i somehoe learn to tell myself that this is nothing...... I need myself more or maybe i have found other ways to distract me from all these..... Things between ME and ME have been weird lately.... I seriously dun find the need to see another sunlight..... I feel redundant here on earth.... Maybe i should go to Mars or back to Venus..... But if u ask me i think i prefer to go to Mars where the men are suppose to be..... hehehe...... That would be interesting........

There i go again... Talking rubbish...Making no sense out of myself....... Perhaps i AM going CRAZY...... Sheeesh wat would the world be with another crazy woman on the loose.....

SHEESH!

Its all Good.

Just a Little Bit...

Pushed myself to go to the gym today.... Been slacking last week due to some pain in my stomach.... its still there today but i told myself its gonna be oooookkk....... Din run at the gym.... Had a walk and cycled as some warming up exercise before i take on the weights....... It was pretty ok.... Could still lift those weights.... Feel much better now after going to the gym..... 1 week of break made me feel a lil guilty and paranoid...... haha.....Ate tau-huey and had soya milk for dinner.....Hehehehe..... Happy me......... At last i got my tau-huey.......

heh

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Make it Simple

Had a simple day wif elf today.. Trooped down to Gene's workplace to pass him the two-way cable so tat he can upload the recording to his pc.... Had my mango frap.......Hoorayyyyyy..... hehehe.... bummed onto my dear cousin and talked to him for a while after which me n elf were in a world of our own.... Gene came along and talked to use for a while..... Talked about the changes that w are gonna make in the song...... Headache!!!!

Anyway nothing else matters had a lovley day wif elf..... Thats what i hope for always.... Till then im gonna be bz doing some rubbish to other peoples blogs hehehe..... have a powderful week ahead!!!

Adioz

Its all Good.

YeLLowzz.......

Jamming today SUCKS!!!!!!! We did our diy recording for dicky.......Recorded 7 blardie times to get it rite..... Intro thrice Get alife twice and falling twice..... Finally picked Get a Life to pass to dicky...... Arghhhh............ Hated today's jamming...... For a while my lips were swollen..... Too much rest fer my lips now its like stupid...... Recording is onli a few weeks away and i stunk this bad..... Shit man i better get my act together...... Pretty pissed bout the performance today...... Starting monday its practice practice practice at home..... memekak pun memekak la......

I was so surprise to see Dydee (Elfie's lil brother) today..... he came!!!! it was nice to see ma bruddah after soooooo long...... Last i met him was when we recorded at SAE in April.........long time ey...... Had a long discussion after jammin and looks like im gonna be pretty bz from next week onwards.... Jammings and sessions..... Gotta get it rite u know..... Possibility of playing a gig in sept........... Wahhh lagi stress..... This is no longer a joke..... I must stop slacking and be lazy..... hehehe.... Then again i always say that.......

It was nice to see Elf today although i din talk to him much at ferst.... But we parted wif a nice hug and a smile.. Going to meet gene tomoro.... Need to pass him the 2 way cable so that he can upload the recorded songs.... Maybe chill out a bit and have some coffee....... and whipped creammmm.....woooohoooooooo.......And ya i have decided to head back to the gym on monday....Although i have not fully recovered but i guess im good enuff to go.... Too much slacking is gonna eat me up alive!!! hehhee....... Alrighty Then its Time to go....... Till then

Au Revoir

Its all Good.

Its all Good.

mmmmmm........

I need to breathe....... Lemme take in a few deep breaths..........This one is for my Baby Elfie.....

I just wanna think back about the good times i had wif elf....... I need to remind myself how much he means to me.....

Our first offcial date.... That was nice.... He fetched me from home but waited at the void deck for me... I came down feeling all nervous and stuff and i called him while walking down the stairs... I saw him sitting with his head down and on the phone.... He smiled at me i smiled back..... Headed to town and i couldnt stand still and was fidgetting in the train cause i was still so nervous....heh.......Elfie showed me his newsletter and i said to myself "Thank God". A Saviour....hehehe.......flipped the newsletter tried hard to read it but just couldnt........ NERVOUS laaaa.......wat do u expect.......

Off to LJS ar Macdonald's House (beside atrium @ orchard at dhoby ghaut)...........I couldnt finish my food and Elf helped me out........Heard the No Doubt song while we were eating.........Underneath it All........It became our song after that....... We walked all the way to pan pacific (dun get the wrong idea)........We wanted to take the lift trip up so that we can see the view from there.... Elf was afraid of heights back then.....So i challenged him.... So we were standing near the road waiting for the right time to cross when he suddenly came up to me and say "Can i give u a hug?".........Me, Ann was stunned....... But i smiled anyway to give him the go ahead......hehehe........Right there and then we hugged.......And i felt so good.......Missed that feeling after so long and after a bad relationship experience......So we were there in front of the lift..... I went in ferst and stood rite in front so tat i could see the view...... The lift went up elf was still near the door.... I reached out my hands to him and told him its gonna be alrite...... He came over and hugged me from the back...It was a wonderful feeling...... I knew i luved him since then......I looked up he looked down and we saw each other eye to eye and we just kissed...... Finally we took a walk to marina promeanade where we sat and hugged each other and asked ourselves where do we go from here.... Elf say we should go slow... And i was like saying How are we suppose to go slow when everything is happening too fast..... As blur as we are we finally said.... So we are together now huh? I said i guess so..... hahaha.... we said ok and that was it.... The beginning.....

It was wonderful and it still is till now....I've always told him back then i was really lucky to have someone like him......And i still think that i am....Hes talented, hes him, hes lovely........Things have been really bad at times but i guess its not that bad.......I've seen rite thru and underneath you baby....... I will hold my promises to you that i've made a long time ago.....

Underneath It All
(by No Doubt feat. Lady Saw)

There's times when I want something more
Someone more like me
There's times when this dress rehearsal
Seems incomplete

But you see the colors in me
Like no one else
And behind your dark glasses
You're something else

You're really lovely underneath it all
D'you want to love me underneath it all
I'm really lucky underneath it all
You're really lovely

You know some real bad tricks
And you need some discipline
But lately you've been trying real hard
And giving me your best

And you give me the most gorgeous sleep
That I've ever had
And when it's really bad
I guess it's not that bad

You're really lovely underneath it all
D'you want to love me underneath it all
I'm really lucky underneath it all
You're really lovely

So many moons that we have seen
Stumbling back next to me
I've seen right through and underneath
And you make me better
I've seen right through and underneath
And you make me better, better, better

For real, I saw my darling
You are my real Prince Charming
Like the heat from the fire
You were always burning
And each time you're around
My body keeps staling for your touch
Your kisses and your sweet romancin'
There's an underside a you that so many adore
Aside from your temper everything else secure
You're good for me, baby
Oh that, I'm a sure
Over and over again
I want more

You've used up all your coupons
And all you got left is me
And somehow I'm full of forgiveness
I guess it's meant to be

You're really lovely underneath it all
D'you want to love me underneath it all
I'm really lucky underneath it all
You're really lovely

You're really lovely underneath it all
D'you want to love me underneath it all
I'm really lucky underneath it all
You're really lovely

Underneath it all
Underneath it all
Underneath it all

Its all Good.

Hey hey hey......

Most of the time when i do something its usually wif a fren of mine.... We've been frens since 1992......... Thats when she pulled me to be here partner when we were lining up during the ferst day of my primary 4 life i think...... I moved from class 3B and jumped to class 4D which was new to me cause i did not mix around with the people from class D to G from primary 1 to 3.... We class A,B,C can be said are quite stuck up shitheadz.... hehehe accept for some who subsequently moved to D class for example me nazri, shahreza (Boy, FGM's Drummer), we were those from A-C classes........ Hahaha Prefect for 2 yrs and teachers' somebody for the whole 6 yrs..... Especially Mrs Anita's HOD Science...... She trust me so much that she would even gve the science lab keys to me so that i can get stuff from the lab for class....... Sheesh....... Teaches Pet or Baruah???????? Wakakakakka........ Enuff of those days.... It was over almost 10 yrs ago...... hahaha


By the way this is me fwen's pic

KIN

Its all Good.

Hey......

Let have a lil chat shall we... Life aint FAIR rite?? Then again who the hell said it was anyway.... You probably get blame for everything... U're blamed for the brak up wif ur bf/gf.... Ur the reason things turned out bad... Ur the reason he/she is late... U're the reason he/she is short of cash... U're the reason he/she have changed for the worst....

RUBBISH....... The only person you or anyone of u should blame is urself for not making it right..... Not realizing ur wrong, Not admitting ur wrong, putting ur Ego before others...... Putting Ur Brain on ur ASS and following emotions.... Well Those are the things i see happening around me.... It happens to me too at times....

Sigh......What To Do......???? This is LIFE.....All i can do is shrug this off...... Put my hands in my pockets, turn around and continue walking forward.....

Its all Good.

wazzaaaaaaap........

Finally coaxed myself to have a break from gym for a week.... Thanks to a fren who's so concern about me health and of course me baby elf too..... I need all the pain to go away by friday man..... i need alot of air on sat...... Gonna be tough if i can only manage normal and short breaths......

I need clean airrrrrrrrrrrrr............. I have been a lil confuse this past few days.... And im treating it as one of those tricks and test that GOD has sent for me to test my sincerity and my faithfulness...... I managed to laff this one off.... Its tough ey being in a relationship..... But you must make it a point to remind urself where you stand and if ur willing to let this one go just like that .... I certainly am not.... Been thru a lot with this guy(elf)..... Not gonna let go just like that....

Adiozzzz

Its all Good.

oLa~~~~~~~

Hey wait lemme look at the time on my hp... It read 12.04am Singapura time... So Good Mornin!!!!! Fuh... Had a quite alrite day yesterday.. There were loads of talking going ard between me, man, baby elf and gene.. Of course la talk about band shitz... Din know there were so many projects ahead for us.. We are gonna be bz ballz.... ARGH!!!!!!!! But im pretty sure we are gonna have more fun then stress.... i have faith in them!!! hehehehe...... 2 of em couldnt make it due to work commitments... So we have to pass on all that have been discuss between us just now during jam... Weeehooo we retards are gonna jam on sat... abelar memekak satu studio... khekhekhe... Had my caramel macchiato at starbucks... couldnt eat much at LJS my tummy wont let me...

Going to da gym tomoro... Gonna do a low intensity workout... Muscles still aching and tight... Can die siaaaaa..... Elf scared me for a while.... He was telling me about TORN LIGAMENTS and what it does to you.... Its as good as saying BYEBYE to ur fitness..

Oklah gue mau rest...

Adiozzzzzzzzzzz

Its all Good.

10 ways to connect with your lover

Read this article on the net..... Check it out

Many of us live in a state of constant rush, with stress at every turn. Learning to focus our attention can be extremely difficult.

Try some of these things below, and "being conscious" will begin to occur for you more often:

* When out in nature, stop what you are doing and just observe something close-up. It can be a leaf, a branch, the effect the wind has on an object, cloud formations, water -- anything. Contemplate what you are witnessing. Remember to breathe.


* Pay close attention to how you are touching someone. Be very deliberate in the touch quality you offer. Put your attention on what you are doing. During touch and stroking, notice if your own fingers feel exquisite to you.


* Try meditating for 10 to 15 minutes. Follow your breath. It is OK to notice when you get uncomfortable or antsy. Just take note and come back to the breath.


* Become "aware" the next time you are in a business meeting or talking with your boss or staff member, instead of running on automatic. As soon as you realize that you are "witnessing" the situation almost as a third party, breathe into your belly and stay in the present with the other person. See if you can have the rest of the conversation "in awareness or in witness of the present moment."

* Say: "yes" more often.


* Be willing to try new things and then talk about it. You don't necessarily have to continue, just try. Trying a few new positions in lovemaking is a great way to experience something new and not too threatening.


* Ask for what you need and want -- nicely! Let your partner do the same.


* Practice compassion.


* Practice playing and having more fun.


* The next time you are making love, look deeply into your lover's eyes. Stay immersed in them and focused. Experience the whole event from that perspective, if possible. Keep your eyes wide open. Come back to your breath or your partner's eyes if your attention lapses.

Read the whole article at http://www.thirdage.com/news/archive/ALT03030520-03.html

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I'VE GOT BIG BONEEEEEEEEEEEESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH~~~~~~~~`

BIGGGGGGG BONEEEEEEESSSSSSSSSSSSSS

HEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHE~~~~~~~~

:p

Its all Good.

YeLLowzzzzz............

Another day of baybeatsssssssssssss................... Yessah......... Met a couple of frens there as usual........... Managed to catch Better Than Run acoustic set and BIG RED MOMENT's set at the Chill Out Stage......... I tot farhat din see me but i tot wrong....... hehehe sibeiii pai seyyyyyy............ i tot i was invisible................ i wish.......!!!!!!!!!!

I was a lil bit of a pain in the ass for elf for a while just now... i was hungry and i din wan to talk to anyone or do anything....... I din even realize that there was an ang moh father and son (i think) who had his roller blades on while pushing his son on the pram........(a dear fren told me about this)...... Imagine That!!! hehehe...... Hungry Man is an Angry Man.... And nothing else matters.......

NONETHELESS

Splendiddddddddddddddd Dayyyyyyyyyyyyy..................... Theeeeee Gloriaaaaaaaaa Recordddddddd was kewl enuff for me......... Full 1 hr solid set.......

hehehehehe till thennnnnnnnnn..........

Asiozzzzzzz

Its all Good.

Where's WALLY or rather Where's ANNIE???

Its all Good.

Heyyyyyyyy........

Heres a lil update.... Nothing much happened uh..... Except for the muscle sprain on my obliques..... OUCH~~~~~ Kinda hard for me to take deep breath normals ones are fine.... Kinda good uh it stopped me from sighing for a while..... hehehe.....

Anyway went down to baybeats just now..... Wif elf just the 2 of us.... Somehow it was strange to some people.... We were just going ard minding our own business bumped onto some frens and all of them ask "Korang DUA jer???" Wat the HELL!!!! Why must there be thousands of us ard...That would be boring wont it.... hehehe....... Neways watch the show till the end till FONZIE finished their last song...... Pretty kewl day......

Anyway its been 1 more month (as of 20th July 2003) of ups and down in my relationship wif babyku Elf......... Nonetheless we are happy...... Another month to go before its a yr... But for now Happy 11th monthly anniversary.... May we be stronger then ever........ Till then

Adiozzz

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Heyyyyyyyy........

Heres a lil update.... Nothing much happened uh..... Except for the muscle sprain on my obliques..... OUCH~~~~~ Kinda hard for me to take deep breath normals ones are fine.... Kinda good uh it stopped me from sighing for a while..... hehehe.....

Anyway went down to baybeats just now.....

Its all Good.

Hey

I'll make this one quick......

Had a bz week...... This is wat i want for the whole of this week and the whole of next week....... Till Jammin on next weel's sunday.....

I want time to myself........
I need to focus on certain things myself.....
I need to get myself and act together....
I need to relax.....
I need plenty of rest.....
I need to stop thinking for a while.....
I need time off from da relationship (theres no problem at all between me n elf i just need to breathe for a while) Luv ya baby......
I need to drink a lot of water.........
I need to be more independent........ Go ard by myself for a while....... Maybe go baybeats on my own too....
I need to quit smoking and i will.........
I need to find a source of income soon....
I need to be left alone for the moment.......

I think i just need to breathe for a while........

This is not me in an emo state.... This is me in a rational and thinking straight state... This is what i want for a while.... Till then..... Take Care Everyone

Adiozzzzzz

Its all Good.

HaLLoooooooooooooo~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

I had a pretty Good Day Today... Spent a quiet day out wif ELF to celebrate an Advnce bertday for him.... we talked a lot......... Relaxed and calm nothing much of the ordinary..... Except when it started to rain me and elf we walking in the rain as if it was not raining at all.......!!!!!!!............We din run not walked fast........ We walked as per normal and ended up shivering in the train....... hehehehe.........Anyway i wanna wish him

HAPPYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY 23RD BERTDAY BABYKUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU.....................

WA LERP SAMA LUUUUUUUUU.....................

HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY HAPPYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY BERTDAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY

AND TO MY BASSIST TOO!!!!! HAPPY 19TH BERTDAY GENIEKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Its all Good.

HaLLo~~~~~~~!!!!!!!!!!!

Pardon the missing pictures..... They are doing some hardware upgrading or something.... So they said..... Neways....... Its been a long time since i listened to Indonesian Songs...... And I've Been trippin on this song since morning!!!!

COKELAT - JAUH

Hari kulalui tanpa hadirmu lagi
Kucoba ingkari sepi ini
Mengapa terjadi hancur kau akhiri
Satu kata janji tak kembali

Seribu tanya sesak di dada
Haruskah bimbang meraja
Lelah tepis harapanku
Sendiri mencari bayangmu

Kutunggu dirimu
Selalu kutunggu
Walaupun kutahu
Kau jauh, kutahu kau jauh

Biarlah semua seperti apa adanya
Kuterus mencoba relakannya
Satu yang kuminta, kembalilah padanya
Kutahu di sana ada dia

Kutunggu dirimu
Selalu kutunggu
Walaupun kutahu
Kau jauh, kutahu kau jauh

Seribu tanya sesak di dada
Haruskah bimbang meraja
Lelah tepis harapanku
Sendiri mencari bayangmu

Kutunggu dirimu
Selalu kutunggu
Walaupun kutahu
Kau jauh,

kutahu Kutunggu
dirimu
Selalu kutunggu
Walaupun kutahu
Kau jauh,

kutahu kau jauh


Adiozzzzz

Its all Good.

Good Morning~~~~~~~~~!!!!!!!!!!!

Been Listening to a Few Songs..... Here are some of them which i think is BeRRy Good!!!! The Horns i Mean.....

Trippin On:
SlapStick - Earth Angel
Five Iron Frenzy - SuckerPunch
Hippos - Please
Decepticonz - Jock Man
No Doubt - Oi To The World
Reel Big Fish - SellOut
Skankin Pickle - Hussein Skank

SLAPSTICK
Earth Angel

Earth angel, earth angel
Would you be mine, my darling dear, I've loved you all the time
I'm just a fool, a fool in love with you
Earth angel, earth angel
Would you be mine, my darling dear, I've loved you all the time
I'm just a fool, a fool in love with you

Earth angel, earth angel
The one I adore, love you forever and ever more
I'm just a fool, a fool in love with you
I fell for you and I saw the vision of your lovely loveliness
I hope and I pray that someday I'll be the vision of your hap-happiness
Earth angel, earth angel
Please be mine, my darling dear, I've loved you all the time
I'm just a fool, a fool in love with you

Its all Good.

eLLoooo~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Maybe i made some wrong decisions in my life.... Maybe there are some that i will learn to regret....... Maybe what i saw the ferst time was not the real thing...... Maybe time will make me see clearer....... Maybe life is about risk.... Maybe life is about chances... Maybe im poor rite now..... Maybe i will be somebody in time to come..... Maybe i hate taugehs now maybe i luv it later on........ Maybe i am too naivr now..... Maybe life sucks now...... Maybe i have nothing to look forward to now...... MAybe theres lots to see soon..... Maybe i will cry today....... Maybe i will laff tomoro..... Maybe i finally understand what luv is..... Maybe i need more patience..... Maybe i need to prove people wrong....... MAYBE!!!!!!

Life is just full of MAYBES and UNCERTAINTIES...... Take one day at a time...... Dun let anyone pull you down no matter who they are...... Lets try to learn to smle more often.... But just remember you can never run away from your problems.. it will come back and haunt you fast if not slowly....... Dun let it be too late to REGRET the things you did before..... Luv the one in front of you... Not the one u cant even touch.......

Its all Good.

Woikkkkk~~~~~~~

Having an affair with him was fun but after he decided to make some changes to himself..... I totally FREAKED and left!!!!

SPONGEBOB SQUAREPANTS

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Hey............

I amost fell sick last nite..... My body was burning up...It was so hot that my bed became hot too.....I slept with my addidas bottle on my neck cause it was cold......... my nose was blocked...... i tot i could do it without the panadols......i tot wrong....... I got up and popped 2 panadols in my mouth and tried to go to sleep again..... I think oi fell asleep at ard 6......... Woke up to the vibrations from my hp...... babyelf called....... dunno what he wss talking about but i know i picked up the fone.....as usual....... finally woke up ard 1+ when he called again......... The weather is depressing..... How am i suppose to go for my long run today???? Arghhhhhh.........

Been sitting in front of my pc since i woke up and been downloading stuff for myself..... I did brush my teeth alrite......!!!!!! in case ur wondering....... Had my normal dosage of tea........ and a stick of ciggie....... Normal wake up routine..... Boeing....... Theres nothing for me to do today..... I think im just gonna rot at home today....... Till something else happens.......

Adioz.........

Trippin on
The Ataris - Radio #2
The Ataris - In This Diary (am watching the video too, live on conan)
Craig;s Brother - My Annie

Radio #2"

Meet me at midnight
At the broadcast tower
High above the hollywood sign
You bring your guitar and I'll bring my radio (radio)

Everyone will come from miles around
To witness this beautiful site
We'll set bonfires and pretend its the 4th of July

This is the starting of a brand new revolution
Bite the hand that feeds
Stand up and fight against messages that they're sending
Stop their frequency

You're always talkin' (its never ending)
It's about time that we turned off the radio
Call the request lines and tell them that it's over
You're always playin' all of the same songs
Over and over again
It's about time that we all turned off the radio

We'll listen to b-sides and sing along
To anthems of the years gone by
Integrity and honesty will prevail tonight
When it's all over (when it's all over)
One question still remains
Why do so many bands never make it to the radio?

Look outside your FM dial
They're preaching lies in 4/4 time
A generation without a voice
It's stripped of pride

My Annie

Darling I want to make the word "love" new 'cause it's been said so many times
And I don't wanna use that old pick up line
And often I try to find the words to use but none capture the way I feel
When I gaze at your smile it seems like I'm out flying a sunset skyline
You've stolen my eyes I stare at what I can't describe i guess i tried

Look in my eyes
It's not hard to realize
I'm the one who loves you
And though you'll never know my heart, my complete feelings
Just know you'll never be alone

Words keep cluterring in my mind as I persist in this futility
But no vocabulary could ever represent the beauty I see
You're everything and more that I could want you to be
And in your face what do I see?

It's like a rainbow in my mind
Like when the daylight starts to die
Just like a landcape catching rain or like a snow glazed mountain face
Like Charlie Chaplin
Like clapping one hand
My love cannot be heard
And all those love song they come out all wrong 'cause there is no such words
My Annie

Look in my eyes
It's not hard to realize
I'm the one who loves you
And though you'll never know my heart, my full emotions
Just know you'll never be alone
My Annie

Its all Good.

OLAAAAAAAAAA~~~~~~~

Today i feel extremely tired....... Maybe because i had too much sleep or maybe because its monday...... Feeling a lil guilty now..... Just finished eating a scoop of rice whch is about 4 spoonful of rice...With some vegetables n fish......Feel like the whole gym session just now just went down the drain.......I was too hungry cause i din eat anything before the gym session except for beancurd (TAU_HUEY!!!!!!!!!!).........Finally.......Arghhhh Dunno la tomoro i will go for my long run..... Burn it all out....... Hai yahz Boring.... Nothing to do already........ Nothing to surf too!!!!!!

Next on my Food Hunt is:
KUEH PAU !!!!!!!

And i dunno where to get one...... so seddey man..... Been looking for it since last week... But to no avail

BORING BORING BORING......


Trippin on:
Blink 182 - Dammit
Blink 182 - What's My Age Again
Authority Zero - SuperBITCH

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Best Arrrrrrrrr.............

Finally i get my well deserved rest....... Slept from 2++am all the way till 1.40pm...... Woohoooooo close to 12 hours of sleep...... ELF called me in between..... I was not functioning well so i dun think i remembered what we are talking about..... Now im up and running and ready for gym laterz...... Wooooohoooooo...... An extra half hour workout today... To pay back for the weekend so called rest which i din get....... But i need to sweat of the things i ate...... Hehehe.... K till Then.......

Adiozzzzzz.....

Trippin on
GREENDAY - NICE GUYS FINISH LAST
BOB MARLEY - WHO THE CAP FITS
BOB MARLEY - CHANT DOWN BABYLON






Who the cap fit

Man to man is so unjust, children:
Ya don't know who to trust.
Your worst enemy could be your best friend,
And your best friend your worse enemy.

Some will eat and drink with you,
Then behind them su-su 'pon you.
Only your friend know your secrets,
So only he could reveal it.
And who the cap fit, let them wear it!
Who the cap fit, let them wear it!
Said I throw me corn, me no call no fowl;
I saying, "Cook-cook-cook, cluk-cluk-cluk."

Some will hate you, pretend they love you now,
Then behind they try to eliminate you.
But who Jah bless, no one curse;
Thank God, we're past the worse.
Hypocrites and parasites
Will come up and take a bite.
And if your night should turn to day,
A lot of people would run away.
And who the stock fit let them wear it!
Who the (cap fit) let them (wear it)!

And then a-gonna throw me corn,
And then a-gonna call no fowl,
And then a-gonna "Cook-cook-cook, cluk-cluk-cluk."


Some will eat and drink with you,
Then behind them su-su 'pon you, yeah!
And if night should turn to day, now,
A lot of people would run away, yeah!
And who the cap fit, let them wear it!
Who the cap fit, let them wear it!
Throw me corn, me no call no fowl;
A-saying: "Cook-cook-cook, cluk-cluk-cluk."
... : "Cook-cook-cook, cluk-cluk-cluk."
Throw me corn (cook-cook-cook);
Me call no fowl (cluk-cluk-cluk)

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Trippin on GREENDAY - MINORITY

Minority

I want to be the minority
I don't need your authority
Down with the moral majority
'Cause I want to be the minority

I pledge allegiance to the underworld
One nation under dog
There of which I stand alone
A face in the crowd
Unsung, against the mold
Without a doubt
Singled out
The only way I know

I want to be the minority
I don't need your authority
Down with the moral majority
'Casue I want to be the minority

Stepped out of the line
Like a sheep runs from the herd
Marching out of time
To my own beat now
The only way I know

One light, one mind
Flashing in the dark
Blinded by the silence of a thousand broken hearts
"For crying out loud" she screamed unto me
A free for all
FUCK 'em all
You are your own sight

I want to be the minority
I don't need your authority
Down with the moral majority
'Cause I want to be the minority

Its all Good.

aLo Alo Alooooooooooooooo

Today was superb ballz....... Although my feet is killin me rite now... But it was AWESOME!!!
Acoompanied ELF to make his first pair of lenses today... Kecoh ah..... He had trouble putting that blardie lenses into his eyes..... Hehhehe.... Same for first timer i guess, i myself was like that....... Off to swee lee to get my valve oil and his new snare skin..... Wah loads of walking done ballz.... Meet with the rest before heading for jam.. Had a short session to get the tabs for the new song "FALLING".....

Jamming was awesome after 3 months of hibernating due to other commitments...... I tot i was gonna suck big time but i didnt or at least i din suck too much hehehe.... Thank GOD!!! But my lips we back to becoming "thick" it got tired easily coz idin practice much since the recording..... Another Recording on the way oin august....... WoooooHoooooooooo!!!!!

We hung out a little bit after jamming..... Talked about the recording and of course we sang THE BIRTHDAY SONG FOR BABY ELFIE the whole lot of us at the coffee shop..... hehehehe......... Could see him bliushing..... I ate my TOSAI MASALA at last..... Man BOH.......

Walked to MRT alone cause i could decide how to go home and last min decided to take the train.... Elf felt bad but seriously its no big deal.... It ws alrite wif me.... What to do....... Im theonli one livin in Jurong...... hehehe..... K time for me to do something else... Till then.....

Adiozzzz

Its all Good.

aLoHazzzzz..........

I'm actually a lil sleepy....But let me make this quick.......

The day started out sour but ended pretty well.......

Met elf in town today.... i was alil late so somehow he managed to go to bugis to get me some lunch...... How appropriate... Cause i din eat anything before i left the house.... Thanks.......Appreciate it a lot baby..... Wanted to watch a movie but ended up walking around town do a lil bit of shopping......... Elf bought for a us a pair of ring...... It was beautiful..... I LUV IT........ I guess ELF luved it too...... Walk ard window shop and stuff it was a pretty good.... We joked ard alot...... Nice day....... Klah i want to rest.........

Sayang jugak aku kat ELFIE~~~~~

Thanks for the lovely day.....

Adiozzzzzzz................

Its all Good.

HaLLo

Sometimes you have to let it all out.....
Sometimes being emo is alrite......
Gotta Make these people understand.....
That you are human and have feelings like they do....

Till Then I will need the Strength and Will to Carry on as far as i can.....

I'll keep waiting till that day when
You come back on home to me
Life's too short to live without you
Where you are is where I wanna be

Adiozzzzz.......

Its all Good.

You dont wanna make it stop
I think i have seen enough
Things have just been way to rough
Tired of the same old bluff
I dont wanna make you cry
I just wanna say goodbye
I dont need your seek and hide
Living on the same old lie

She cries
Haven’t been around to see her
All night
Haven’t been around to hold her
I try but she cries
Haven’t been around to tell her
That i try the best that i can

Its all Good.

SIALANZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ~~~~~~~~~~~~

Had to end the day on a sour note..... Life is so hard.....And some people think its all about the money...... I have spent countless amounts of money looking for a job..... I did......... Some people just din see it and they accuse me of not doing anything about it....... Now im dead broke..... No money means no more going out ever.... Not to the gym not to anywhere...... Wouldnt wanna spend Elf's money..... Nanti kalau di ungkit macam mana...... People are good at that..... Elf does that most of the time and my mom does it most of the time........

I'm really getting sick and tired of all these things....... Bombardments everyday........ Perhaps i shouldnt have gone to poly and waste my time there..... Its practically useless...... No use having a DIPLOMA but theres no job....

Its really taxing...... My mom nags about this almost everyday and Elf just had to rub it in..... I cant take it any longer...... But if i can how long will i hold on....... REALLY FUCKING SICK OF THIS!!!!!

I JUST WANNA BE FUCKING APPRECIATED........ THATS ALL I ASK........ THE REST IS ALL UP TO ME!!!!!!

FUCKING OFF NOW!!!!

Its all Good.

Irieeeeeeeeeeeee..........................

Gosh tiring day ah today....... Din sleep enuff.... Had only, say bout 4 hrs of sleep...... Then off to da gym..... Pancit woik..... Haven been going for a week......Running was a chore.......I din do so bad though i still finished my run....... And had time to walka lil bit more........ Hahahaha me n kin had a feast juz now..... Hahaha its not food.... And its only for us to know....... We decided to go to the gym a lil bit earlier on fridays due to some "motivation" ....... Hahahaha...... Its 3.30-6.30 on fridays now.......Fiesty.........heh....

Got home and rest for a while........ Elf called and started making somuch noise just because i ask 1 simple question...... He can be an ARSE at times...... irritating day spoiler...... And all i said to him was "GO PLAY UR GAME LAR... MALAS NAK LAYAN U" ................ Which i really am..... Cause im tired and then had to come home to such nonsense...... Sheeshhhhhhhhhhh...........................

Nevermind Tomorrow is Better Day i Hope......

Adiozzzzzzzzz

Its all Good.

ArLoeeeeeeee................

Before i continue neddling with the templates and stuffing pictures into this ting......Lemee tell you wat hapened today......... Stayed up all nite doing the blog thingy....... Naura helped me of course..... Without her my blog will continue to be the blue one...heeee......

Neways i was suppose to be up by 2pm just now....But i guess i was too tired and drowsy......Woke up at 3.45pm to elf's call...... Hes complaint that he tried so hard to get to me and i din pick up the fone and at last i did....

Rush to toilet had my shower and stuff got ready to go out...... Well i gues on the other side he was rushing too.... Anyway met him at bedok near his werk place and we took a bus to bugis.... Before having lunch we bumped onto my aunt and uncle...... I din see them at ferst but she was literally screaming my name......NOW who would miss that!!!!! ...... Turned around and saw here....... Talk to her for a bit and had lunch while she went off to do her own things....... The lunch was on me like i promised..... Then we walked to city hall sat down for a while and talked and went we got tired we went to the toilet to pee and off we go to the bus stop to go home......

I was already in the bus when he called me...... Panic Stricken he said "Baby my Ez Link dah bis.... And i din bring any cash wif me how????????"............. He panic and of course i also cuak......... So cuak that i spoke so loudly ion the phone n the bus i guess hahaha ........ Pai Sey siakkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk............ hahahaha finally got a solution after commin up wif a few and everything was settled.......

Well thats what being a girlfriend is about......... Not only to be there during the fun and happy times but when theres a problem she will go all out to help the bfs.. In a relationship it has to be vice-versa.... Help each other out when possible..... And of course having Good Frens also do help........ Till then

Adiozzzzzzzzzzzzzz

Its all Good.

BOB MARLEY




One of the song i fell in Love wif a long time ago

Stand Alone

There you are, cryin' again
But your loveliness won't cover your shame
There you are, you're takin' true love
And while you're takin' true love, you given the blame

(How could I ...) Could I be so wrong
To think that we could get along?
Days I wasted with you, child
If I count there'll be a million or two
Now I stand alone through the memories
That haunts me, that haunt
Yeah, and I walk alone through the rhapsodies
That taunts me, that taunts me, me

There you are, cryin' again
But your loveline-ness won't cover your shame
There you are, you're takin' true love
And while you're takin' true love, given the blame

(How could I ...) How could I be so wrong
To think that we could get along?
Days I wasted with you, child
If I count there'll be a million or two
Now I stand alone through the memories
That haunts me, that haunts (... me)
And I walk alone through the rhapsodies
That taunts me, that taunts me

Now, there you are, cryin' again
But your loveline-ness won't cover your sham-ame, hey
There you are, you're takin' true lo-love
While you're takin' true lo-love, given the blame

(How could I ...) How could I ..

Its all Good.

ArLoeeeeee......

My Tummy was merciful today....... Not much of a pain..... Could handle it... Must be the prescribed drugs the doctor gave me.... Anyway i finally took my pics today.....And heres one for everyone hehehe..... There are a few pictures which were not saved properly going over tomoro to get the rest done...... Till then hope u like this one......

GOTHIC KONON!!!!!!! HUAHUAHUAHUA

Wakakakakakakkakaka

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HarLowwwwwww~~~~~~~

Some pictures are meant for some people.... These pictures should be awarded to these people i know hahahaha....

Awarded to Myself



Awarded to ELFIE Babykuk hahahaha FARTER!



Awarded to Naura!!! Hahahaha

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BaByKu, BaByMu

Hehehehe

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Hi~~~~~~

Finally the drugs work...... For now la....... Hope it last!!!! ........ Burpzzzz.......kherkherkher.....Mulutku bau pisang....... Thats the ferst meal i had today..... I cant consume rice and watever my mom cooks....It just makes me wanna puke just now........ Finally made it to the doctor today Wooohooooo.... And at last i get to see DR KHAIRUL ABDUL RAHMAN............Been hearing words about him from frens saying that hes a stud and all....... Well.........He has the body i lust for and oklah hes sweet lookin.....hahahaha........Sakit sakit pun mata jahat tau.......

Anyways back to reality ya. Dad is back from dubai..... No more hooray hoorays....Although i still can do it once a while lar.......Looking forward to the weekends going to SENTOSA and might be jamming on sunday..... Kewl kannnn........ Hope im well by then lar.... Pray hard ya!

Adiozzz

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Heya~~~~

Come listen to me talk..... Today nothing much happened..... Cant move around too much..... This is the worst menses ever.... The cramps stung me like some thick syringe stuck in my abs.... And i lost me appetite totally and have not been eating right for 2 days now.... Had a spoonful or rather a forkful of mee and thats it.... i ate the mee in order to eat my medicine..... Puked twice today..... Since i ate nothing all i could puke out was this bitter green coloured liquid.....

The pain was horrendous in the afternoon, and i decided to go to the doctor..... Only to my dismay the doc's was closed argh....... It took me forever to walk thru n fro.......Sheesh......Feel like a weakling...... Cant stand it...... I'm feeling quite ok for now.... Hope i will be fresh n running wild as usual tomoro......

Eh sudahlah.... time to watch frens...... Will talk soon...... Btw im taking my pics back tomoro..... Yeyyyyyyyyy!!!!!!!

Adiozzzz....

Its all Good.

Oii~~!!

THIS FUCKING PAIN IN MY TUMMY CAUSED BY MY MENSES IS TOTALLY UNACCEPTABLE.... FUCK ITS BEEN ARD FOR THE PAST 2 FUCKING DAYS AND HAD CAUSED ME SO MUCH PAIN!!!!! IT TOOK AWAY MY APPETITE AND MY STRENGTH...... ALL I DO IS POP PILLS INTO MY MOUTH N SWALLOW.... OTHER THEN THAT I WILL BE ON MY BED RESTING CAUSE IT HURTS.......

WHEN THE FUCK IS IT GONNA GO AWAY????

TOTALLY FRUSTRATED~~~~~

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HeLLo..............

I was looking thru some pics in my pc and i found some nice ones to share.. khakhakahkah....... Check tiz out...

ALL ABOUT DAFFY

During His Skool Days........


During His Guards Days,,,,


His Current Junior Officer Days...


Kherkherkher
Adiozz

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HaLoeeeee~~~~~~~

Being in a relationship at times can be pretty kewl.... Today was one of the kewl dayz.... Went to town with Elf today..... People watch for a while before which we bumped onto desmond (NOOB's Guitarist)......... Sat down for a while and talked and looked and trying hard to decide where to go next.... It was fine at ferst till it got frustrating waiting for a decision..... FINALLY we decided to go to 7-11 to get me some panadols. My cramps were acting up again....It was terrible....... Felt like dying man......

Walked a lil bit and we sat down again so that i can gobble up my pills..... It took a while for the pills to work...... But i tried hard to not think about the piercing pain and walked..... Cold Sweat came running man.....We took a bus to marina......Bought some food and headed to the promenade where we sit and talked and laff......

Afterall it was a wonderpul day, putting behind all the little mishaps and screw ups and the little temper running here and there..... Nothing much then a little merandang on our parts and a quick cheering up to make each other smile again...... Learning to trust is not easy... You just need to knw stuff to make urself feel better at times.... Anyway Thanks baby.....muackz!

Wa Lerp Sama Lu La BaByKuK Elfie

Adioz~

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FITNESS MYTHS AND TRUTH

I read an article about Fitness Myth and somehow i felt lucky...
Luckily i never listen to some of my friends..... Sheesh~!!!!!


Myth: Women who lift weights will get bulky muscles.
Truth: Women don't have enough testosterone to develop large, bulky muscles, says ACE. Strength training will not cause women to build muscles, although steroids might.

Myth: Spot reducing is possible.
Truth: Guess again. It's simply not possible to "burn off" fat in one specific body part by exercising that area, ACE states. Numerous studies have tried to refute this claim. But only regular exercise -- aerobic and strength -- and a sensible diet can melt body fat.

Myth: No pain, no gain. Yikes.
Truth: Exercising to the point of pain can harm you, not help. It's OK to push yourself a bit, to tax your heart, lungs, muscles and bones -- but be reasonable. Don't risk an injury.

Myth: If you exercise, you can eat whatever you want.
Truth: You're joking, right? A healthy diet goes hand-in-hand with a sound exercise regimen, ACE states. For weight loss, eat more fruits and veggies, far fewer sugary foods, and EAT LESS.

Myth: Exercise requires a hefty time commitment.
Myth: As little as 30 minutes a day works when you're in health-and-fitness maintenance mode, and 60 minutes a day will help you lose weight.

Myth: There's a magic bullet out there.
Truth: Yet another joke. There is no quick fix, says ACE. Those nutritional supplements often use "deceptive, misleading, or fraudulent advertising," ACE advises.

Myth: Muscle weighs more than fat.
Truth: "In simple terms, a pound of muscle weighs the same as a pound of fat," Heimburger tells WebMD. "The difference is that muscle is much more dense than body fat. Therefore, a pound of muscle will take up much less room in your body than a pound of fat. Another benefit of muscle, it is significantly more vascular [better blood supply] than body fat and will cause you to burn more calories at rest than body fat."

Myth: Exercising at low intensity burns more fat.
truth: "This is a particularly confusing topic for some people," says Heimburger. "Many people have thought that lower intensity is the fat-burning zone. But in reality, you're burning a greater percentage of total calories -- including fat calories -- when you exercise at a higher intensity."


What puts health and fitness myths in our minds? It's those get-skinny-quick product ads, Cotton says. "People want to know what's the easiest possible way to get from here to there." When it comes to health and fitness, "there's no magic bullet."

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Hi~~~~~~~~

A lot of things happened today........ And somehow i dun wish to discuss it......... Let it pass by me as another chapter in my life.........I guess its time i should change...... My mom has been shoving me all the religious books that she got from her classes.....

Maybe i should start 1 by 1..... Perhaps with the prayer part....... Maybe things will be better........

Till then....

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Eh Elo~~~~
This is ELFIE before he shave that nice nice Gt off......... Arghhhhhhhh~~~~!!
Khekhekhe.....

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Woik~~~~~~~

Honestly today im alil bit lazy....... Maybe its my malas day.......... And seriously im sick of this Singapore....... Its too small till i ran out of ideas where to go~~~~!!!!!!!!!!!!

Arghhhhhhhhh............

MALAS MALAS MALAS MALAS MALAS.................
MALAAAAAAAASSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS.............................

Thank you for reading what i wrote i appreciate it........Wakakaka

Nak Tidor laaaaaaa.... Bye!

8.40am Singapura Time

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Jeng Jeng Jeng~~~!!!!!!!!!

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Woik~~~~~~~~~~~~

Well well had an ok day today. I off my hp for the whole day.... No distractions......... FINALLY........

Elf called me i think after he finished work or something and he was asking if i was trying to avoid him...... Well im not too sure what the answer to that is....I dun even have it in me... Perhaps i just wanted some PEACE...!!

Anyway had a great time at gym.....Really work my ass off today.... Finally managed to push myself to run the 2.4 on the treadmill under 20 mins in fact it took me 18 mins to get there..... But its the treadmill anyway....I dun even know if its accurate.... But i am going to run again later..... 2.4km not on the treadmill but the full length.... Have to find a watch though.... Well anyway after gym i tried calling Elf but he din pick up it was frustrating at ferst... Then kin told me sabar uh ann nanti dier call balik punya..... Sure enuff he did....... Talked to him for a while.....Got to know that hes a lil bit seddey.....I dun know if its true or not......The reason being i was not around for him the whole day.... I off my fone most of the time..... Poor baby..... i miss you though!!!

Anyway came home and rest for a while......And then went out again.......With that couple la who else???? Fiq and Naura.... Went to mustaffa centre walk walk.....Saw loads of stuff there which i can buy but for now i broke lar so buat bodoh only la.... Then went to somewhere near Boon i forgot what the place is and drank TEH TARIK...... Freaking sweet ala telan only uh AKAK NAURA dah belanje....... kherkherkher.....Fiq and naura gave me some quiz and there was this particular one which really got me thinking till i finally gave up.... Sheesh.........

Finally home!!!!!! For now bley la hooray hooray kluar memalam nanti father come back from Dubai abis la rikwayat kluar malam ku.......

Missing Ma Baby Badly~~~~~
Sweet Nitemares

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A little tip on stress management

A lecturer was giving a lecture to his student on stress management. He raised a glass of water and asked the audience, "How heavy do you think this glass of water is?"

The students' answers ranged from 20g to 500gm.

"It does not matter on the absolute weight. It depends on how long you hold it. If I hold it for a minute, it is OK. If I hold it for an hour, I will have an ache in my right arm. If I hold it for a day, you will have to call an ambulance. It is the exact same weight, but the longer I hold it, the heavier it becomes."

"If we carry our burdens all the time, sooner or later, we will not be able to carry on, the burden becoming increasingly heavier."

"What you have to do is to put the glass down, rest for a while before holding it up again." We have to put down the burden periodically, so that we can be refreshed and are able to carry on."

So before you return home from work tonight, put the burden of work down. Don't carry it back home. You can pick it up tomorrow. Whatever burdens you are having now on your shoulders, let it down for a moment if you can.

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Alo~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Had an ok day tonite but it ended it with a bang......

I was too sick of staying at home...Too many things on my mind..... Decided to call kin up and ask her for a coffee...... I had my caramel cafe latte and she had her snapple........ Before that we had a walk thru the 'funfair' or some call it da PASAR MALAM over at Jurong West Central.....

Over at coffee bean, i saw this guy at the corner of my eye...... I tot it was just some fella who had a bunch of minahs n mats as frens..... Somehow i felt that i knew him...... Arghhh i decided to buat bodoh only la..... Cant be bothered to take a look..... Kin came back from the toilet and then she smiled at the direction where he was...... I turned and look cause i was curious laaaa......It was actually my cousin who just cameback from work....... So i turned and smiled at him..... And he smiled back..... he tot i was just a fren of kin's whom he did not know..... What and idiert he..... He said i looked so different and that he din know it was me!!!!! BUGGERzzzzzzz......... Then another lil cousin of mine came by.... He too thought that i was another person........ Sheeshhhhhhhhhh.......... Do i look TOO different........????????? Wakakak Sat a lil bit with them and i learnt few new words.......

1. Siakap = gerls
2. Lauk = gerls
3. Cik - kla - Ak = crappy/rubbish/merepek

Each of these werds came from each of em.....

then bummed onto liana..... Found out that she met (well not exactly met, elf went to starbucks where she was working) elfie at sengkang which i never knew he did....... Imagine how pist i was.... There were already probs between us at home and now this rubbish....... I cant be bothered anymore... i trying very hard to put it behind me...... Just hope it never happens again....... It sucks when ur partner keep shitz from you.. Does he think that by telling me where he is going i am going to say "I DUN CARE YOU WAIT FOR ME THERE I WILL BE THERE IN A FEW MINUTES".....I have a life too you know........ I have been doing things on my own too...... But i still told him where i will be, with whom and for what....... I guess its just being responsible doing that........ If i wanted to go out alone i woiuld tell him......Arghhhhh nvm la... Dun wanna waste my time brooding over it......

Anyway after that me n kin met fiq n naura for the ferst time seyy......... Hahahaha we had tea for a while and had a game of scrabble NAURA won seyyyyyy......wakakakakakka.......I got loads of vowels Wat Da Fuck!!!!1 especially the blaried Os.........Then off we go home......Fiq droved kin home ferst "GILER BABI SIAK" He was in some race or something the corners wasnt that sharp but he made it sharp himself........kherkherkher..... Kita kat dalam dah mcm bola......

Finally time to send me home...... But before that he tried reminding me about the bob marley cds which he wanted to borrow so badly...... Neways Naura came up to my place saw my berselerak room hahahahahaha........... we went down again i asked fiq if i could drive his car and he said DRIVE AH!!!!!! Woooooooohoooooooooooo manged to drive his suzuki swift 2 round in my carpark.....Gitu pun happy la been so long since i last drove and i still couldddddddd..........I think its tim for me to do my TP again......I love the feeling of driving.......

Ala abes tu kene balik........Bored once again as usual.......... The troubles and problems come up to me again...... Macam Soyal....... Anyway i wanted to tell elf that im home but i dun wish to disturb him..... And to tell him that i will be bz to see him this week..... not till sat for the jenputan thingy..... and i think after which i wanna go home uh.... Malas wanna go anywhere else....... And i think we should refrain from meeting once a week...... Should change it to once a month...... I need to concentrate to do the things i need to do and he should concentrate on his career...... I have a goal to reach..... I need all the time in the world.......

Till then

Adioz 4am Singapura Time

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10 THINGS I HATE ABOUT YOU~!!

I hate the way you talk to me and the way you cut your hair.....

I hate the way you drive my car.....

I hate it when you stare.......

I hate your big dumb combat boots and the wway you read my mind......

I hate you so much it makes me sick it even makes me rhyme!

I hate the way you're always right.....

I hate it when you lie......

I hate it when you make me laugh even worst when you make me cry.......

I hate it when you're not around and the fact you didnt call........

But mostly i hate the way i dun hate you, not even close. not even a little bit, not even at all......

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Hmmm....

I tried to sleep away my problems but i just cant do it..... Its different for me...... Things are still in my head...... I just have to think about him and then everything starts all over again..... Its terrible how mean things which are said can bring u down big time...... I am so not use to this...... I think im gonna need help..... He tried helping me cause he luv me but he knows the things which other people said have hurt me once too many times.....

But who will help me?? God Knows but i Dun... Whoever that person is i hope he/she will come very soon...... I sure need the guidance.....

Totally helpless and complete numbness

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Oi~!

Who in the world believe me if i say im going crazy???

Well they better cause i think i am going staright to join the insane club............. Have been going thru a lot this week some were nice and wonderful and perfect and some were shitty as always..... And seriously this roller coaster is taking a toll on me.......

Cant blabber much got a migraine and its killing me....Maybe if i bangd my head on the wall the pain will go away......But then again i have always been doing that and it doesnt work......... My pills are gone.....None left...Panadolz dun work.... My eyes are sore too..... Sick and tired of this illness physical and mental.......

Haizzzzzz..........
Gd Nite.....

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