Lovely Underneath It All..
Its been dreadful.. I've started work and it has been great.... I've been thinking about work alot lately... Work is forever onmy mind.. Been building good rapport with some of the crews.. So far so good.... Hard bein a trainee man....
Arguements are natural and its bad when u hear someone scrutinizing u everyday.... Guess its has already taken its toll on me... I threw in the towel today... And moving on to greener pastures.. I need Nathan... My Mr Tell-Me-About-It.... hahaha.... Breathe Ann Breathe... Its gonna be ok... Hahaha... Still remembered when i called it QUITS with Just.. Went out with a fren and came home at 2am.. hahaha... and all we did was to watch a movie and talk for hours... That was fun... Worries were over...
Till the next best thing happens... Wont be updating much...
Its all Good.
Updatez
Heh gonna copy someone......
Friday...
Elf took half the day off.. he called me askin me to accompany him.... well i did we had a nice timeout together..... I dun remember wat i did before that..... hahaha...
Saturday
Elf came over to watch 2 movies with me.... Niceeeeee......
Sunday
Was out with my family.. Went to Johor.. Daddy bought me a new pair of jeans.... Yeahhh finally.....
Monday (TODAY!!)
First day of work..... Tiring but satisfying..... hehe..... Got a mail from someone who have went to 2 of our shows.. Will reply to her/him when i have the draft soon.. Thanks for your support.. We like u too.... hehehe....
KEDAH THIS WEEEEEEKKKKENDDDDDDDD....... Cant wait.. really cant wait..... Jamming tomoro after work... Hope i dun collaspe halfway..... hahaha...
cheerz....
Its all Good.
MANDY - Barry Manilow
(from whoever to ME)
I remember all my life
Raining down as cold as ice
A shadow of a man
A face through a window
Crying in the night
The night goes into
Morning, just another day
Happy people pass my way
Looking in their eyes
I see a memory
I never realized
How happy you made me oh Mandy
Well you came and you gave without taking
But I sent you away, oh Mandy
Well you kissed me and stopped me from shaking
And I need you today, oh Mandy
I'm standing on the edge of time
I Walked away when love was mine
Caught up in a world of uphill climbing
The tears are in my mind
And nothing is rhyming, oh Mandy
Yesterday's a dream I face the morning
Crying on the breeze
The pain is calling, oh Mandy
You came and you gave without taking
But I sent you away, oh Mandy
You kissed me and stopped me from shaking
And I need you...
Its all Good.
Feels Like Flower Falling Down My Head
Blasting:
Mocca - Me and My Boyfriend
Mocca - Secret Admirer
Mocca - GoodNight Song
Mocca - What If
20 Months!!!! Thats how long i have been with this silly fellow..... Listening to Mocca's jazzy mazzy Secret Admirer, it made me feel as if im floating in the air.... Im happy with myself... Happy that things are going on alrite... I dun need it to be fabulous. Its "Aight"....
Imagine those musical movies. Where the girl falls in luv and shes singing and smiling and moving around the whole neighbourhood skipping with a flower in her hands.. She smiles at everyone and keeps singing and looking up in the sky with her luv one in her mind..... Hahaha if i was playing that role now it would be perfect for me..... Imagine me doing that with the dress n everything.... hahaha....
I WANNA PLAY JAZZ... I luv jazz (although i dunno much about it, i APPERCIATE it).. its bassy.. I Luv the bassy sound of music...
Happy Anniversawwwwwyyyy Babykuk.......
Hahaha we spent our day at my place and we were cooking hahaha... Mom n Dad were home... So we were basically cooking for the family.... Could see Elf was happy and all dreamy about US living together and doing this alot.... haha.... Luv ya Elfie
Cheerz!
Its all Good.
Secret Admirer - Mocca
(for whoever)
Oh, secret admirer…
When you're around the autumn feels like summer
How come you're always messing up the weather?
Just like you do to me..
My Silly admirer
How come you never send me bouquet of flowers?
It's whole lot better than disturbing my slumber
If you keep knocking at my door
Last night in my sleep
I dreamt of you riding on my counting sheep
Oh how you're always bouncing
Oh you look so annoying. (Please!)
Dear handsome admirer
I always think that you're a very nice fellow
But suddenly you make me feel so mellow
Every time you say: "HELLO!"
And every time you look at me
I wish you vanish and disappear into the air
How come you keep on smiling?
Oh! You look so annoying…. (Not again!)
My secret admirer
I never thought my heart could be so yearning
Please tell me now why try to ignore me
'Cause I do miss you so
My silly admirer ('cause I do miss you so..)
My handsome admirer ('cause I do miss you so..)
Dear secret admirer…
'Cause I do miss you so…
Its all Good.
Me and my boyfriend - Mocca
(For Elfie)
I've got a boyfriend now
He's my dearest pal
He'll always catch me when I fall
He's always there when I call
I've got a boyfriend now
He always talks so loud
Even in a crowded house
He always shows what he got
I share my dreams and all my stories
I don't think I need my diary
If you're teasing me, don't you worry?
I will keep you in my memories
When my boyfriend smiles
The world seems all mine
And all the days seems truly fine
Make me reach up for the sky
Me & my boyfriend now
We're moving so slow
If you really want to know
Come on and join the show!
I share my dreams and all my stories
I don't think I need my diary
If you're teasing me, don't you worry?
I will keep you in my memories
When I'm blue…. feel so lonely
No one sits here right beside me
I'm gonna call you just to hurry
Come and see me
It's so scary and I need you desperately
I share my dreams and all my stories
I don't think I need my diary
If you're teasing me, don't you worry?
I will keep you in my memories
I share my dreams and all my stories
I don't think I need my diary
If you're teasing me, don't you worry?
I… will… keep… you… in…. my memories
Its all Good.
It's Motown Fever...
Blasting:
Gladys Knight and The Pips - Midnight Train To Georgia
The Ronettes - Be My Baby
The Temptations - My Girl
Everly Brothers - Dream Dream Dream
The Shirelles - Will You Still Love Me Tomorrow
The Shirelles - My Boyfriend's Back
The Temptations - Ain't To Proud To Beg
The Platters - Blue Moon
The Temptations - Lean On Me
The Temptations - Just My Imagination
The Four Tops - Sugar Pie Hunny Bunch
I Might Not Be Able To Do Everything, I Might Be Stupid, But Theres One Thing I Know I Can Do, is LOVE....
Half of the year is almost gone... What have we achieved so far?? What have I achieved...... Finally got my career running.... After a year plus.... Efforts never goes to waste ey...... U fall u pick urself up and go again.. Thats exactly what i did.. And i thank GOD for making it worthwhile... 2004 is career year...2005 will be the start of my Life's journey Insya-Allah....
Did some calculatons over the phone with Elf... Argh!!!! Harsh harsh reality... hahahaa.. We are gonna save up to $500 per month... And after deducting bills and stuff.. Its like ARGH!!!!! hhahaha just $200+ to use for the whole month... hahaha... HARSH REALITY.... Hate it....... Elf and I have been good... We are more homely now.. Even if we wanted to meet up.. He will be hanging out at my place watching VCDs and stuff with my mum around of course.... VERY ECONOMICAL... Guess we have grown up together.....
Its hard to believe.....
"Wah i've been with you since 2002, Thats was like 2 donkey years ago"... That was what Elf said... hahaha..... It was a ride.. When it was up it was really up and when it was down and rough it was horrendous... Now we do argue but at a moderate level... Its always because he likes to irritate me BIG TIME... Forever Idiots..... hahaha both of us are IDIOTS.... He is the person i cannot live without.... Hes the closest to me....
MOTOWN RULZZZZ...hehehe
Cheerz...
Its all Good.
For Him
At Last
Etta James
At last my love has come along
My lonely days are over
And life is like a song
Ohh yeah yeah
At last
the skies above are blue
My heart was wrapped up in clover
The night I looked at you
I found a dream, that I could speak to
A dream that I can call my own
I found a thrill to press my cheek to
A thrill that I have never known
Ohh yeah yeah…
You smile, you smile
oh And then the spell was cast
And here we are in heaven
for you are mine....
At Last
Its all Good.
It Came!! It Came!!
Yesssss.... The call cameeeeeeee...... Its confirmed i got it..... Mr Stanley called me personally to deliver the piece of good news.... He sounded happy and so was i.. I thanked him after receiving all the much need information... Ok Tuesday it is a the office.
Yesterday
Johor was hot ballz!!! Couldnt stand the heat.. And i didnt get enuff sleep as well.... SO it was a lil dreadful.. But i had fun with Elf... Minded our own bisnes as we roamed JB... I got myself 2 packes of ciggies while he got himself 1.... The heat was unberable so we finally decided to leave JB after lunch..... Going back was breeze not much of a long queue... Elf with his very own confidence said... Lets take 170 to bugis... And we did and yeah it took us a LONGGGGG time to reach bugis.....hahahaha.... He forgot that it wasnt the JB express bus and that the trip was far longer...... hahaha... Its alrite.. We went to bugis to him dinner and then off to rest and relax.... heh.... Lovely lovely day..
I MISS JAMMING..... Cant wait to jam... Its the upcoming week... We have 2 weeks to kedah... Hope i can join the lads.... really hope so.....
Cheerz
Its all Good.
When No One Cries With You
Whatever i do i wont follow the actions of others... No matter how much i was hurt i wont hurt anyone back.... Even though i have no one who cries with me when i do.... But when i laff... Theres so many people who wants to laff along....... Guess for me theres so such thing as a "true fren" ey....
I give in too much... I let people bring me down once too many.... Im getting sick of it.... He thinks he can mock n criticise me and just say SORRY hoping that it will be ok.... Ya alrite i will forgive but i wont forget.... "
What comes around goes around".. I dunno if i should believe in retribution... But if it does it surely wont be coming from me... Will be from HIM High About.... We'll wait and see.... Im just gonna do things as usual..... Cause i dun wanna do wat i dun want other to do onto me....
Cheerz....
Its all Good.
Wait For A Call
Forever have to wait for a call.... Sheesh.. Yesterday was fun... I was hired... He told me to wait for another call to sign my appointment letter and collect all the necessary uniforms.... Hahaha.... Yes i got it... Starting pay at $1.4K before confirmation and after which it will be $1.6k.. Not bad considering the work i have to do... I was reminded abou the amount of pressure over n over again.... And i kept telling myself n Mr Teo it will be a challenge....
Miss my baby.... Meeting him tomoro.... We are going to Johor hehehehe..... Gonna sit n relax buy ciggies for ourselves without having to rush here and there... hehehe.. Gonna be fun... cant wait...
Heres the only picture that was taken during the gig at Kallang Riverfront..
ELFIE, ANAS, SONDEE & GENE
Its all Good.
WITHOUT THE TRUTH, WE OURSELVES BECOME POWERLESS
Its all Good.
Who Knows What The Fuck Shes Thinking - SLAPSTICK
Blasting :
Gunshot Mondaze - Yester Year
Less Than Jake - Johnny Quest Thinks We're Sellouts
Slapstick - Earth Angel
Slapstick - Almost Punk Enough
Slapstick - Colorado
Slapstick - She Doesn't Love Me
Slapstick - The Punks (I LUV THIS ONEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE~~~~~~!!!!!!!!!!)
Hahahaha yeah its slapstick galore for me today.... Simply luv the horns tunes for THE PUNKS by SLAPSTICK.... Heeeeee..... Powerdertermak..... hahaha..... weeeeee hoooooooooooooooo....... Makin me all wet....... wakakakaka.......
Anyway.... Elf went shopping yesterday..... After running all errands like paying bills and stuff... It was shopping time...... Ok he bought himself a new pair of levis 508 jeans which he wore right away..... Then he bought ADDIDAS SAMBA 2 - Brown one.... hahaha I've got the blue one..... I'm an ardent fan of ADDIDAS shoes..... heee.. He wore this too and he threw away his old shoes.. hahaha FINALLY THANK GOD..... Then finally a t-shirt... He bought 1 for me too!! Thank u baby!! heeee.... Shopping was tiring... Haven done this much shopping since forever... It was funnnnn... Cant wait for the next one.... hehehe.....
All is Well... Im Happy for now and so is Everyone Else..... Cheerz!!!! Ouh ya here is the flyer for the KEDAH GIG.... I might NOT be able to join the guys to play in the gig due to work commitments (if GOD is willing that i get the job)..... But i will be rocking with u lads here in SG... Please GOD let me rock with them.... hehehehe
Cheerz!
Its all Good.
Phewwww
Blasting :
Plague of Happiness - Sick Of You
Plague of Happiness - Kawan
USV - All My Life
USV - Kapushska
Heyyy... Hehe... Tats My sigh of relive... Interview was over yesterday and i did pretty well... 1 down 1 more to go... On Job Evaluation next... Just 1 day and my fate will be sealed.... Hope i ace this one too... Feeling the rush now.... Gotta be in the store at 10am on the 15th and already feel the rush.. hehe.... I was happy for me and Elf too was happy for me... All the best Ann.. You've gotta nail this one now....
Was suppose to be in JB now with Man & Elf.... Just couldnt wake up cause i just couldnt get to sleep last nite... Hehehe.... Too tired ah.... In the end i woke up when i receive a call from Mr Teo.... And from then on i can just FORGET about sleeping..
This week its SKA week for my ears.... Been playing songs from bands that i have played with in gigs... Especially Plague of Happiness (POH) a bunch of very talented people from across the causeway... and some other american bands as well.... I have tons of CDs... Mostly from Elf...
Ouh ya USV's website is back after a major overhaul done by zool... Most of our ideas werent in i dunno why.... After telling him what kinda look we wanted it was still far off from our ideas.... Dunno wat to say liaoz... Sianz... Neways here it is...
www.usvonline.net
Its all Good.
Ronan Keating
If Tomorrow Never Comes
For Elfie
Sometimes late at night
I lie awake and watch her sleeping
She's lost in peaceful dreams
So I turn out the lights and lay there in the dark
And the thought crosses my mind
If I never wake up in the morning
Would she ever doubt the way I feel
About her in my heart
If tomorrow never comes
Will she know how much I loved her
Did I try in every way to show her every day
That she's my only one
And if my time on earth were through
And she must face this world without me
Is the love I gave her in the past
Gonna be enough to last
If tomorrow never comes
'Cause I've lost loved ones in my life
Who never knew how much I loved them
Now I live with the regret
That my true feelings for them never were revealed
So I made a promise to myself
To say each day how much she means to me
And avoid that circumstance
Where there's no second chance to tell her how I feel
If tomorrow never comes
Will she know how much I loved her
Did I try in every way to show her every day
That she's my only one
And if my time on earth were through
And she must face this world without me
Is the love I gave her in the past
Gonna be enough to last
If tomorrow never comes
So tell that someone that you love
Just what you're thinking of
If tomorrow never comes
Its all Good.
Love Stories
Was lookin for my certificates for the upcoming interview that im gonna attend this sat.. And i stumbled upon some lovely love letter or e-mails rather from a sweet guy i once was dating... After reading all his mails i come to realize that he did luv me so much.. And that he withstood my nonsense without complaining.... Until we argued about everyday... And the i was the one askin for the split... Its sad man.... I was farking mean.... The dude was so sweet and so in love.... And i had to take all that away from him... I wanted a split badly cause i already had another.... Hahaha.... Yeah call me a bitch..... I was a heartless bitch..... Terrible me..... He cried when i asked for the split..... I didnt shed a tear... In fact i gave him a last hug and felt nothing... How naive i was back then..... Last i heard he had a girlfriend.... Hope she treats him well and that hes happy....
Old stories are nice.. Sweet memories of when i was a teenager... Cute funny and dumb.... I didnt know wat luv was back then.... Now Elfie has shown me luv.... I've learnt luv the hard way and im glad hes around with me...Thank You...
Cheerz
Its all Good.
Frustrating
Im freaking pist with mama right now.... I just dunno what she wants from me..... When i dun have a job she made sooooo much noise..... And now when i told her im called up for an interview she made moreeeeeee noise........ WADDA HELL!!!!!!!!!! Sometimes i feel i should kill myself...... Stressful living on this world... I dun understand these people... Dun they have anything better to do???? WADDA FUCK!!!!!
Its all Good.
Explaination
Dun get me wrong people..... I'm not preachin bout anarchy, capitalism and stuff... Its just the things i read and felt that i wanted to share.... Thats all..... Will be doing from A to Z.... So after Z, theres no more such articles until i find another book by these people from CrimethInc.....
Cheerzzzzz
Its all Good.
Give Me Back My Happiness
Conflicts happens everytime.... Everyone hates it, and im no exception.... WHATEVER LA!!
Today we do C
C is for Capitalism
Extractions as always
What is Capitalism?
Capitalism? That?s like democracy, isn?t it? Actually, capitalism and democracy are two very different things. Democracy is, essentially, the idea tha people should have control over their lives, that power should be shred by all rather than concentrated in the hands of a few. Capitalism is something altogether different.
And capitalism is, in fact, one of the least democratic economic systems. In a ?democratic? economy, each member of the society would have an equal say in how resources are used and how work is done. But in the capitalism economy, in which all resources are private property and everyone competes against each otter for them, most resources end up under the control of a few people (today, read: corporations). Those people can decide how everyone else will work, since most of the others can?t live without earning money from them. They even get to determine the physical and psychological landscape of the society, since they own most of the land and control most of the media. And at bottom, they aren?t really in control, either, for if they let their guard down and stop working to keep ahead they will quickly be at the bottom of the pyramid with everybody else; that means nobody truly has freedom under the capitalist system: everyone is equally at the mercy of the laws of competition.
Taken from Days of War, Nights of Love - CrimethInc 2000
Its all Good.
Confusion
My mind is pretty clogged... I've been hurt over and over.... And time and again GOD gave me the strength to forgive.. Guess i got it from my mom....
It so hard on me...But i had to put on a strong front.... I dun want anyone to think that im weak... Everything was crushed into pieces.... I'm picking it up again..... I'm going to glue, tape, sew or watever it back again....
I hate this feeling right now..... Very much hate it.... Theres nothing i can do.. Whats done is done..... Its just disappointing....
Its all Good.
Can you spend time like money??
Everything sucked today..... Hated What happened today... sucky sucky sucky..... Yes i am pathetic..The person who YOU said was pathetic was the first person who was there for YOU when YOU needed her... Life is forever unforgiving and unfair.... All i have to do now is swallow this rubbish and shove it down my throat.... Shaking my head from side to side all i could think off is "Changes are only made temporary, and words contradicts itself over and over".... Sad Sad Morning........
Today we do B
B is for Bourgeoisie
Extracts to evoke the mind
Bourgeoisie = Marxist theory, the bourgeoisie are the middle-class people who owns most of the wealth in the capitalist system.
Does your father drift from one hobby to another, fruitlessly seeking a meaningful way to spend the little "leisure time" he gets off from work? Does your mother endlessly redecorate the house, going from one room to the next until she can start all over again? Do you agonize constantly over your future, as if there was some kind of track laid out ahead you- and the world would end if you turned off of it? If the answer to these questioons is yes, it sounds like you're in the cluthces of the bourgeoisie, the last barbarians on earth......
Our society is so fragmented, so diverse,that at this point it is absurd to speak of "mainstream." This is a myth partly created by the anonymity of our cities. ALmost everyone passes the street is a stranger: one mentally relegates these anonymous figures to the faceless mass one calls the mainstream, to which one attributes whatever properties one thinks of strangers as possessing (for the smug salesman, they all envy him for being even more respectable than they are: for the insecure bohemian rebel, they must disapprove of him fornot being like they are). They must be part of the silent majority that invisible force that makes everythibng the way it is; one assumes that they are the same "normal people" seen in television commercials. But the fact is, of course, that those commercials refer to an unattainable ideal, in order to keep everyone feeling left out and insufficient. The "mianstream" is analogous to this ideal, as it keeps everyone in line without ever actually making an appearance, and possesses the same degree of reality as the perfect family in the toothpaste advertisement..
Get real!!
Taken from Days of War Nights of Love - CrimethInc 2000
Its all Good.
Frankie J
Don't Wanna Try
(oooo)...don't wanna try don't wanna try (try try)
(oooo)..don't wanna try no more
(ooo)..don't wanna try don't wanna try don't wanna try
i can't believe u had the nerve to say the things u said
they hurt so bad that they ended our relationship
i can't believe it ..4 years go down the drain
oh how i wish things would of happened so differently
i try'd to save it so many times but you still couldn't see
u kept insistin' and resistin' that u would not fall again
and now u tryin' to tell me that ur sorry
and ur tryin' to come back home
ur tellin' me u really need me crying beggin both knees are on the floor
but baby i
don't wanna try don't wanna try don't wanna try no more
u keep insisting when u know our love is out the door
don't wanna try don't wanna try cuz all we do is fight and say the things
i hurt u bad to when we both begin to cry
don't wanna try don't wanna try i 'bout just had enough its been a rough road
baby just let it go
don't wanna try don't wanna try don't wanna try no more
tell me whats the use of holdin' on when all we do is hurt our love
u and i had many conversations on the telephone
talks about one day we having a place of our own
wake up in the morning and have breakfast ready on the table
but all of that just seems so far away from me
had to wake up face reality
it all just seem to good to be true after all you put me through
and now u tryin' to tell me that ur sorry
and u tryin' to come back home
u tellin' me that u really need me crying beggin both knees are on the floor
but baby i
don't wanna try dont wanna try dont wanna try no more
u keep insisting when u know our love is out the door
don't wanna try dont wanna try cuz all we do is fight and say the things
i hurt u bad to when we both begin to cry
dont wanna try don't wanna try i bout just had enough its been a rough road
baby just let it go
don't wanna try don't wanna try don't wanna try no more
tell me whats the use of holdin' on when all we do is hurt our love
(don't wanna try don't wanna try)
(don't wanna try no more)
(don't wanna try don't wanna try..oo)
(don't wanna try don't wanna try)
(don't wanna try no more)
(don't wanna try dont wanna try don't wanna try no more ooo)
Its all Good.
AkuStaTik - OAG
Seusia malamku menantimu
Dihembus embun aku tersipu
Mungkinkah kau lupa temujanji kita
Kau gembira bersama teman-temanmu
Berlari-lari ku mencarimu
Selembut salju musim berlalu
Mengapa berubah sekelip mata
Hatiku gundah tiada terhingga
Kau umpama merpati putih
Patah sayapnya di udara
Kau umpama merpati putih
Patah sayapnya di udara
Merbahaya
Its all Good.
Space Doesn't Exist Till It Is Explored
Good Morning Sngapura.... Finally got to sleep at 8am.. Been reading a lot today... From the articles in Red Devil #2 to Days of War, Nights of Love by CrimethInc.... Been reading blogs too.. Especially Elfie's which was a long one.... Nice words for me there... hehehe
Today we do A....
A is for ANARCHY....
Lemme extract some stuff from the book....
Stop thinking of anarchism as just another “world order,” just another social system. From where we all stand, in this very dominated, very controlled world, it is impossible to imagine living without any authorities, without laws or governments. No wonder anarchism isn’t usually taken seriously at a large-scale political or social program: no one can imagine what it would really be like, let alone how to achieve it-not even the anarchists themselves.
You don’t want to be at the mercy of governments, bureaucracies, police, or other outside forces, do you? Surely you don’t let them dictate your entire life. Don’t you do what you want to, what you believe in, at least whenever you can get away with it? In our everyday lives, we are all anarchists. Whenever we make decisions ourselves, whenever we take responsibility for our own actions rather then deferring to some higher power, we are putting anarchism to practice.
So if we all are anarchists by nature, why do we always end up accepting domination of others, even creating forces to rule over us? Wouldn’t you rather figure out how to coexist with you fellow human being by working it out directly between yourselves, rather than depending on some external set of rules?
Think about it.
Taken from Days of War, Nights of Love - CrimethInc
2000
Its all Good.
Blow the Dust
Finally i took the time to read RED DEVIL Issue #2,which was done way back in 1998... A hardcore DIY magazine with articles and writings which might evoke the minds of some.... Stumbled upon 1 article, It affected me in a way.. But im trying hard not to let it fuddle up my mind....... Here is the article.....
Second Chance
First and foremost, I would like to dedicate this article to the sweetest girl that I’ve ever known and anybody who has been in a similar position like what I’m gonna say next……
I’ve been bugged by this question for months and I’m still facing it. “Do relationships deserve a second chance?” Well, for me yes, cause I need it badly. I just had a bad relationship but that doesn’t matter to me anymore cause that’s the past. I don’t dwell in it anymore cause I‘ve found answers and solutions to my bad past. But I’m frustrated cause I’ve never been given a chance to prove that I’ve changed. I’ve done everything I could from analysing, to admitting and changing from the bad to the good. I’ve done everything I could to improve myself, to make myself a better person but all I need is a chance, a chance o prove and to make things different from the past. I know that I’ve been mean. I was a brat, I was not good enough in the past and I’ve realized my mistakes but why am I not given a second chance? Everybody needs chances in their lives and I think that there are more serious chances to be given compared to a bad relationship. I guess love’s weird, unfair and in these type of situation, heartless cause if humans are good enough to think they wouldn’t make things so hard…….
I’m left frustrated to why this nice kind-hearted lady that I once knew is turning her back towards me over uncomplicated matters compared to other people who are in a worse position compared to mine. I’ve done everything I could from a soft to hard approach but things aren’t working out. Nah, I guess at the end of the day I’m left to respect her decision. I just want her to know that, “Please try to be rational, I’ve got my mistakes and you’ve got yours and don’t put the blame entirely on me.” At times I wonder, after our break-up, she seems to be very mean to me, like raising her voice and not respecting me, but why?? What have I done to make her turn like this. I guess before I go out of point I’d better end thing here, I hope you’ve found the happiness and freedom you wanted so much and if you ever realized one day that you’ve been mean to me or done something wrong, you’re always welcomed and don’t hesitate cause you’re in my heart of fame……. And my life goes on from here….
Elfie Mondaze
Red Devil Issue #2
1998
Its all Good.
Hate My Fucking PC
Listening To - USV - All My Life
Error Ths Erros That..... Shitz..... Everything error..... Fed Up Liao.......
Yesterday Saturday
Ok finally woke up to baby's fone call.. It was like 1+ and he was saying hes already on the way.... So i thought it will be hours before he reached my place.. So i continued on with my pc stuff... Thinking that he would call when hes around in jurong... Hours passed and no fone call.... I decided to call instead.... Warghhhhhhh hes already approaching my blk.... I went like "Why u neva call me!!!!! Hai yah i haven mandiiiiiiiiiiii......." hehehe.... told him to wait at the void deck till i had my shower... When i did he came up..... Mama opened the door for him... And of course ferst thing she said to me was "Panaskan kuah mee tu kasi dier makan"... I looked at him and smile.... My Mama's Faveret boi..... Takot nah si "menantu" manje dier kebulur.... Rite baby?? hehe So ya ok we watched 2 movies then we got tired... "Taking Lives" and "The Anarchist Cookbook".... Good movie..... Raunchy sex scenes.... Was a lil uncomfortable watching it with elf in front ofmy dad.. so some parts i purposely forwarded it... Elf helped himself to the food in the kitchen... His tank is hugeeeeeee..... hahaha..... Went down to the shop to get meself some envelopes and smoky smoky..... Had a lil private space with elf before we went up again..... My unkle and aunt was ard... Sat ard for a while then he left for hs aunties place at Pasir Ris.
Ok hes off.. Ws in the kitchen with mama...Then she asked
Mama : "Lambat Elfie balik niari,dier tak keje"
Ann : "Keje la niari kan ari nam, half day"
Mama : ooo
Ann : Dier nak tengok 2 citer baru balik
Mama : Abeh ni dier nak gi mane
Ann : Gi rumah makcik dier
Mama : Makcik dier sakit??
Ann : Tak lah,makcik dier baru bersalin, dier gi sana ngan mak dier...
Mama : Abeh ko tak pegi...
Ann : Heeeee... Tak lah.... Jauh la.. kat Pasir Ris
Mama : Tu lah semua yg ko "kawan" tinggal jauh jauh
Ann : "grinz"
hehehe.... see wat i mean...... constantly asking about him..... hahaha.....
Thanks for the simple day baby..
Its all Good.
SoRry Its UnAvoiDaBle
Hey hey.... Due To Some Un ForeSeen Circumstances, USV will NOT, i repeat will NOT be playing at planet paradigm this coming April 24th..... Any inconvenience caused is greatly regretted...
Baby is on his way over... Yeah..... VCD marathon for me and him.... So exciting....... hehehe....
Its all Good.
I Yearn For Him
Brian Ray Ulrich aka Skeet Ulrich
My luver since i dunno when..khekhekhe
Lemme share with you some yummylicious pic of him
Its all Good.
Bummin
Life aint as great as i tot.... Been staying home the past few days.... It was horrendous... Ya ok no money spent... But i was slowly dying.... Need something to do now....
Elf came over yesterday.... He ate like a pig as usual... He cleaned up everything on the plate i gave him.... Fried Rice, Many Many Sambal Prawn, some Vege dish and after which he requested for some keropok... hahaha see what i mean..... And all i did was watch him eat..... After tat hearty meal.. We sat on the couch and watched KILL BILL together.....hehehe nicey feeling......
Frustration made me pinch elf to my hearts content..... Hes so nonsensical and mean... IDIOT...... But we made up the next minute.... hahaha... Sex and violence..... Very interesting.... khekhekhekhe....... Must be tat movie we watched left an impact in me.... be afraid be veryyyyyyy afraid...... hehehe
Its all Good.
