For Elfie
Hate To Hate???

It doesnt matter much anyway...
What i wrote wasnt name calling...
At work i wasnt myself...
I felt something wasnt right...
You called me at a bad time when i was busy and stuff....
It doesnt matter wat you said...

Go chase your dreams...
Go do your things...
No one is trying to be "in"...
You never let me do the things i wanna do...
You chose to curse me instead...
But all this doesnt matter anymore...
Cause i lost someone much more dearer than you....

Laffin no i'm not......
Cryin maybe i will when he goes down under.....
Enuff of hating each other...
It wont do anyone any good....

Granddad passed on tonite.....
I was in the greatest state of shock...
As far as i heard he passed on while sleeping.....
He didnt get to see anyone....

Hate me all you want....
Curse me till i die....
Enuff is enuff Elf....
Erase everything tat happened....

For whats its worth.... i'm sorry....
For today i learn tat forgiveness is golden...
For your mistakes i forgive you too..

Its all Good.

Ok IRRITATING is the word.......

He called me just now. Looing for me at work and stuff........... WADDA FUCK!!! Cant he just leave me the fuck alone...... His voice and the sissyness in him just got on my last nerves.......

It was all about the bills... So afraid that i wont pay........ Ape sajer........ Feel like throwing the money to the last cents to his fucking face........ Kaoz.......... irritating giler........

Sheesh now i wonder what i saw in him......... Ouh ya..... "Girl"... you know who you are..... You can finally have him..... Im not interested anymore....... Go rekindle ur watever love u had for him.... hahaha. Good luck!!! hahahahaha

But i like me now.... Free from pest lingering in my ears.......

The past is the past.....

Ok so Am has expressed his fondness........ Im sooooooooooo not interested........ I just got out of a relationship for goodness sake......... No Rebounds Please!!!!!... hahaha for now its better being friends then being a foe in the future......

Adioz

Its all Good.

ArLu ArLuuuuuu

Ok pay was out like 2 days ago..... now im left with 80 bucks!!!!......... Pretending the 500 bucks i saved not to exist that is....

bike prac has been good....... next up circuit review...... Sub 8.... All the best to me...... hahaha.....

Ok im so dah siap for jb. Just waitig for rosli to pick me up...... We are going for dinner at the restaurant atas laut.... ntah la kat mane tu.. ikut jer la...... A few f us going today. Think its gonna be a whole lot of fun! Yeahhhhhh.........

Till i come home later byeeeeeeeee

Its all Good.

What a Rush!!!

Today was fun..... Was doing closing today..... I finished my work pretty fast....

zap zap zap... I was home... prepared myself for jb.......

Yan, Yus, Rizal, Rapi and wifey were already there..... So i had to go with Rosli........ R1....... hahaha.. It was fun sharing his fantasy. hahahahahaahha........ ok he rides a 125z...... Thats the R1 and the real R1 was onli a small bike in his FANTASY....... wakakakak.......

Ok we have reached our destination, met the rest and then ordered our drinks. We ordered the same thing...... Not realizing it we drank at the same time.. Suddenly someone voiced out.....

"Eh tgk pengantin minum".........
helmet nak dekat samer bla bla bla.......

And both of us went....... Wadda Hell!!!
kite adik beradik la siol......
wakakaka.......
Ya true i treat Rosli like an older brother although he is the same age as my ex.........
Fun trip i can say........
Especially at the sharp deviations..........

reached home at 4am. mummy is up cookin....... asked me where i went. well no answer from me as usual la.......

hahaha......
ok people. Time for tido. gotta be segar for tomoros prac man.......

Adioz.....

Life is actually alrite if you look wat there is in front of you..........

Its all Good.

Toniteeeeeee is chill out nite.....
Mite be meeting the lads as usual lar......
If im not lazy that is.....
But this friday is a confirmed MAKAN day....
Plans to go to East Coast or West coast or watever coast to get some seafooooooddddd........ hehehehehehehhe....... fantastic........

Tomoro another prac to go. Finally me and aidil meet again.... We are going for the prac together....

Ann: "Ah jumpe kat bus stop, kul 12.30.....
Aidil: Ey bus stop eh jangan luper.......

i think as always i will be late.... Just a lil bit...... Not so much....... hahahahahaha

Plans to go batam this december is still runnin. Money in my pocket. Sufficient for use. I dun think i will spend on anything at all over there.. Cant be bothered....... hehehe......

Cheerz!!

Its all Good.

like i said
i've moved on

when to JB with the lads today.....
3 bikes
yusri, rosli, yan

i was with yusri today, while rosli was with kin and well yan is alone... just the way he likes it

the boys went to repair their bikes.......
i bought some nice stickers....
i hate my helmet now..... feel like throwing it away...
To hell with it. Helmet basahan ajer... gi mampos ah.....

as usual after Jb was coffee shop fr another round of teh Os......
talked alil bit more
then homeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee..................

bye tido time!!!!!!
hehhehehehe

Its all Good.

The cab came
and thats the last
i'll see ur face...

at last it ended
my heart has rested
the doors are closed
theres no more hellos..

i've moved on..
thank you

Its all Good.

Its all Good.

hehehehehe........

Ok S course and Crank Course cleared....... Ready for the next hardest?? Narrow plank and pylon.... If God's Willing i am too.....

Advice given this time: JANGAN TAKUT, LAWAN!!

Fight my fears it means.......

Ok no news about my granddad yet... i've been working hard this past few days.. So many things to do ah.. Headache.... work work work........ im a freaking workacholic. thats bad dude badddddddd.........

Oklah. I just got up from bed to go to the loo actually. Now im feeling sleepy again. Going back to my new pillows and bolster!! wakakakaka. Thats where my heaven is!!!

adioz

Its all Good.

Ey Ey.......
ArLue......

Woke up to tons of msgs today.... Boss msged me telling me i flunk my test and stuff.... i kena fuck inside out BIG time!!!!! Then jumi msg me telling me i pass..... Now im confuse which is the real one. Argh when i go to work later i go check it out myself....

Yesterday i went to the hospital with elf after dinner with my family... Dad sent us...... pretty upsetting to see him there.... Knowing that he will leave us sooner or later......

Elf called me... Asking me if i have read his blog... well yeah i did...... Then he told me tat SHE msged him.... She said she was a lil upset and that she will be alright..... But she was glad me n him we're back together... I just kept my silence when he was telling me all tis..... i dun understand y she must be feeling the way she feels..... (by the way Elf asked for me back and we hell yeah we're back)

Well i did ask Elf this,
Ann: So are upset as well?? Getting back with me?
Elf : Nope not at all..
Ann: You sure...
Elf : Yes

Elf tells me everything under the sun... He tells me every single detail.... Thats the thing i luv about our relationship.... Pretty open... But sometimes wrg things are said we end up arguing... hahaha.....

All i can say is... Ya its true watever elf told u... I rather not meet u or know you... I have my reasons... And avoidance is necessary... Just concentrate on ur relationship... Make it better.. repair the damage tat both of u have done..... 11 yrs aint a short time... Anyway all the best of luck.....

Patience is a virtue......
Hes still my baby afterall......

Its all Good.

Heyyyyyyyy........

ok heres the deal.......
yesterday was BAD!!! i failed sub 2.02..... i dropped my helmet and it chipped a lil bit..... all that made up when i got my results for my RTT....... Moi passssssssssssssssss!!!!!!!! wakakakakakakaka....

Then today BAD again........ I made loads of careless misakes on my entrance test......... Wadda Hell Ann. Wake up siaaaaaaaaaaaa.............

Elfs alrite.... hes sleeping at home rite now..... Read his blog and the song tat was for me was about a dead person....... hmmmmmm cant really relate... but nvm la....... im Tooopid anyway... hehe

Got news bout my grandpapa.... Hes in critical condition and that the doctors says he has only 20% chance of survival.... But then again doctors ARENT GOD....... Wadda hell do they know..... if he goes im left with my grandmama onli........ Thats soooooooo upsetting!!!!!

Wat a World Wat a World!!!!
Full of Confusion..
Full of Depression..

Going off to the hospital....... Meeting elf there i assume.. see yaz laterz

Its all Good.

Hanson - Lost without Each Other

I ran into your best friend today
Twelve nights since you ran away
I asked about you and she said, can't say, can't say
I'm feeling lonely and it seems to stay
It's been a while since I felt that way

Well, I can tell you there's no room to play this game
All I know is what I'm missing
What I'm missing is your kissing
Are you listening

Don't go, don't go telling me you're alright
There's no room for getting uptight
Don't go saying that you're OK
When you're lonely
Baby, don't go telling me we're over
When you know you're my one and only lover
And I won't go saying that we're OK when we're
Lost without each other
'Cause we're lost without each other
'Cause we're lost without each other
I didn't mean to start the last big fight
You never should have hung up that night
All I want to do is make things right
Make it right

Listen, with all the choices that we chose to make
And all the promises we chose to break
We were busy making big mistakes, yesterday
All I know is what I'm missing
What I'm missing is your kissing
Are you listening

Don't go, don't go telling me you're alright
There's no room for getting uptight
Don't go saying that you're OK
When you're lonely
Baby don't go telling me we're over
When you know you're my one and only lover
And I won't go saying that we're OK when we're
Lost without

I can tell you one thing
We're not better on our own
I'm tired of running from my feelings

Are you listening
All I know is what I'm missing
What I'm missing is your kissing
Are you listening

Don't go, don't go telling me you're alright
There's no room for getting uptight
Don't go saying that you're OK
When you're lonely
Baby, don't go telling me we're over
When you know you're my one and only lover
And I won't go saying that we're OK when we're
Lost without each other
Lost without each other

Its all Good.

He called me in the morning....
Telling me he missed me.....
Frankly speaking, i missed him too....
He asked me out to geylang....
To get himself his raya outfit....
It stabbed me hard in the heart...
It made me sob like a loser....
Dun think i would be buying any...
Dun think i wish to celebrate...
I'd rather be called back for work....
Cause i need to avoid people....
Things have changed.....
Its different this year.....
So Different............

Its all Good.

WELCOME TO MY LIFE - SIMPLE PLAN
(The battle inside of me, this is what i feel - Ann)

Do you ever feel like breaking down?
Do you ever feel out of place,
Like some how you just don’t belong,
And no one understands you?

Do you ever want to run away?
Do you lock yourself in your room?
With the radio on turned up so loud,
That no one hears you screaming?

No, you don’t know what it’s like,
When nothing feels alright,
You don’t know what it’s like,
To be like me!

To be hurt, to feel lost,
To be left out in the dark,
To be kicked, when you’re down,
To feel like you’ve been pushed around,
To be on the edge of breaking down,
When no one’s there to save you,
No you don’t know what it’s like,
Welcome to my life

Do you want to be somebody else?
Are you sick of feeling so left out?
Are you desperate to find something more,
Before your life is over?

Are you stuck inside a world you hate?
Are you sick of everyone around?
With the big fake smiles and stupid lies,
While deep inside you’re bleeding?

No you don’t know what it’s like,
When nothing feels alright,
You don’t know what it’s like,
To be like me!

To be hurt, to feel lost,
To be left out in the dark,
To be kicked, when you’re down,
To feel like you’ve been pushed around,
To be on the edge of breaking down,
When no one’s there to save you,
No you don’t know what it’s like,
Welcome to my life

No one ever lies straight to your face!
No one ever stabs you in the back!
You might think I’m happy,
But I’m not gonna be okay!
Everybody always gave you what you wanted!
You never had to work, it was always there!
You don’t know what it’s like (what it’s like)…

To be hurt, to feel lost,
To be left out in the dark,
To be kicked, when you’re down,
To feel like you’ve been pushed around,

To be on the edge of breaking down,
When no one’s there to save you,
No you don’t know what it’s like,

To be hurt, to feel lost,
To be left out in the dark,
To be kicked, when you’re down,
To feel like you’ve been pushed around,
To be on the edge of breaking down,
When no one’s there to save you,
No you don’t know what it’s like,

Welcome to my life!

Welcome to my life!

Welcome to my life!

Its all Good.

SELAMATZ BERPOSA YER!!!!!!!!

InsyaAllah everything will go on smoothly for you and me...

Its all Good.

Hey Its been a while since i was last single..

It has been hell... finally we closed the curtains... There were so much drama mama... Seriously speaking let everyone think i was the bad person.. I dun really care... Cause the only people who knows the truth is me and Elf... I know him inside outside.. i stood by him thruout the years.. And now finally my heart is learning shut for him... I feel aite...

Yesterday was fun.... Had a long day..... Was at BBDC the whole freaking day.... Had practical. Fell hard BEFORE the slope.. haha.... my right knee bruised my left scratch....... Hahaha.... Ups and downs of riding pwetty kewl ah. hahahaha

Half dead at work today.. Migraine ahhhhhhhh.. Wah kaoz....... Jln terhoyong hayang.... pening kepale.... hahaha.. Yati came early to help me out. Thanks a milion......

Its all Good.

Heyyyy...

Ok so im back from the most chill out BBQ pit ever. Hahaha... It was pit for the Mc Ryderz.. Was pretty fun... But i lost my specs... Not exactly lost though.... Me and hamzah were walkin ard east coast lookin for ciggies cause we were farrrrrrrrrr from the shops.... Then we came by this longkang... We were joking with each other smacking and grabbing each other hands. Then suddenly "PLOP". My SPECS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I screamed. I looked pretty upset... Hamzah can say "UPSET NAMPAK". Idiot he!!!!!!!!!!! i screamed "Of Course la...... I use my own hard earned money to buy"!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! hahaha. He put his hand on my head and messed up my hair and said sorry.... haiz!!! DUIT lagi...

We played 21 with forfeit. i kena rabak man..... i was the first to lose... Sumbat la kacang kat idong and telinge and last was a hotdog in the mouth. GROSS!!! hahahaha.....

They went back at 3.30am while Yan stayed on with us. Talked about some stuff and gossip a lil bit... At times people just judge him... But if u really sit down and talk to him.. Hes actually alrite.. But never even think of RIDING his BIKE!! Its a big NO NO.... hahaha

3 guys came back the next day cause they wanted to have a "Good" swim..... haahaha...... Yan, Rosli and Yusri..... it was great fun...... Since it was 3 girls to 3 guys... Each guy tumpang one girl home... Sent azy home at CCK first then to Jrg East then last Me place!!! And ouh ya someone broke his promise to me. hes gonna geddit when i see him tonite!!!!!!!!!! Smack his butt inside out confirm...

Ok laydeez and gentlemen. i have to go have a 5 mins shower. im freaking late.... Got practical today and ater that off to work. Till then!!!! Adioz!!!!!!

Having friends are better than having relationships... They bring out the best and the fun part of you... Relationships only brings out sorrow... When that happens that person aint meant for you.. Bu if you take it as a challange God set out for you.. Then GOOD LUCK!!

Its all Good.

Just Like A Pill
Pink
(Missundaztood)

I'm lying here on the floor where you left me
I think I took too much
I'm crying here, what have you done?
I thought it would be fun

I can't stay on your life support
There's a shortage in the switch
I can't stay on your morphine
'Cause it's making me itch
I said I tried to call the nurse again
But she's being a little bitch
I think I'll get out of here

Where I can run just as fast as I can
To the middle of nowhere
To the middle of my frustrated fears
And I swear you're just like a pill
Instead of making me better
You keep making me ill
You keep making me ill

I haven't moved from the spot where you left me
This must be a bad trip
All of the other pills they were different
Maybe I should get some help

I can't stay on your life support
There's a shortage in the switch
I can't stay on your morphine
'Cause it's making me itch
I said I tried to call the nurse again
But she's being a little bitch
I think I'll get out of here

Where I can run just as fast as I can
To the middle of nowhere
To the middle of my frustrated fears
And I swear you're just like a pill
Instead of making me better
You keep making me ill
You keep making me ill

Run just as fast as I can
To the middle of nowhere
To the middle of my frustrated fears
And I swear you're just like a pill
Instead of making me better
You keep making me ill
You keep making me ill

I can't stay on your life support
There's a shortage in the switch
I can't stay on your morphine
'Cause it's making me itch
I said I tried to call the nurse again
But she's being a little bitch
I think I'll get out of here

Where I can run just as fast as I can
To the middle of nowhere
To the middle of my frustrated fears

And I swear you're just like a pill
Instead of making me better
You keep making me ill
You keep making me ill
Run just as fast as I can
To the middle of nowhere
To the middle of my frustrated fears

And I swear you're just like a pill
Instead of making me better
You keep making me ill
You keep making me ill
Run just as fast as I can
To the middle of nowhere
To the middle of my frustrated fears

And I swear you're just like a pill
Instead of making me better
You keep making me ill
You keep making me ill
Run just as fast as I can
To the middle of nowhere
To the middle of my frustrated....

Its all Good.